I wanted to be a director, or a writer, a dictator of the imagination, but a passion that I always had since I can remember is acting – you get to be anyone, anything you want. I can be a mother, or a teacher, or even a sick auntie. And when I get into the character, I really become them. And it is not just for the time I am rehearsing, but I practice to make my mind become that personality. And that’s what I love, it gives you the chance to understand, and to even be, so many different people. I lived in Tuscany, and then moved here at the age of 17 mainly to study acting and also to escape from the fake social bubble that italian towns tend to create. You end up believing in unnecessary things, thinking the world starts and end there, it’s such a joke.

I believe in this idea that all of us have a decade roughly, where you have to do the best that you can to reach whatever you want to reach.

After that, we can go in a small house in Masachusettes and die by ourselves, as we would anyway. For me is surely this what I want to do. Maybe later becoming a guru; people can and meet me and I can help them thanks to the wisdom that the passing of time will hopefully give me. Like those skinny guys with white hair… I want to be a skinny girl with white hair who has people coming from different places who hear about me, and then I can tell them “yes come and tell me what’s wrong, I’ll heal you… and you as well.” I can be content like this, once I achieve my goals and then use my days to help others.

I have thought this way for as long as I remember, and I guess it is what your family make you think as well. I have a wonderful family, even with its own painful mess inside, but they are wonderful. And they’ve always told me, especially my mum, she has always told me ‘ go for what you want to go for, and she would always say ‘when you have money, spend the money, and when you don’t have money, you need to go and make some money. And that’s fair enough, I mean I want to enjoy life, i’m a big hedonist, but I like small things, I don’t buy expensive clothes – I mean I’m dressed for £4 in total, I don’t eat out all the time. I like my small pleasures like my coloured cigarettes,  dark pink, purple, green cigarettes – I love smoking those . Living here is so expensive, I can’t even afford to, I’m late on my rent and I am to scared to open the water bill letter because of my baths mania, I mean i work in a cinema so I don’t make a lot of money, I need to find my shifts and all of that.

My Dream… Find the next Nigerian Spike Lee and make films with him all over Africa

“I am camera technician. I work in the film industry. I am from Guadeloupe, in the Caribbean. I spent the last few years working between the Caribbean, Paris and London but I needed to settle somewhere. That’s how I ended up in London.

At home, in Guadeloupe, we have a small film industry who is growing very fast but we don’t have the opportunities yet to do a proper career in the camera department. I came to London to grow and become a Director of Photography. I am here to get experience, learn as much as possible. Living oversea is a great life experience.

My Dream is to reach my goal, travel the world to make films, settle in a hot country and have a family….Find the next Nigerian Spike Lee and make films with him all over Africa, or something like that 🙂

My turning point was my high school diploma. I passed my exam, turned 18 and moved to Paris the following week. I remember my mom asking me confirmation on my plans for Uni. At that point, I think that she understood that I was determined, so my uncle took me ticket to Paris. I became independent. When you are 18, it’s feels like having two wings growing on your back.

My parents would prefer me to stay in the Caribbeans and become an accountant or a doctor, but they trusted me enough to let me go and follow my dreams. I think it’s important that parents trust their children vision. It build their confidence and ambition. The society need confident and ambitious people and the world will always need storytellers.”

POST OF THE WEEK: At the time I was engaged to a girl for four years… she saw things differently after her depression

“Once I finished law school, I worked as a junior lawyer back in Romania. I had shorter hair then.
But after that I got a project, in art – I wrote scenarios for theatre places and also played as an actor in a remake of Oscar Wilde’s book. We did an adaptation on his play, a Portrait of Dorian Grey – read the book if you haven’t done so. We adapted it to our day, with a modern version of the character. It’s a very psychological story, about religion, and power… and what happens to him once he takes his Uncle’s fortunes.
I chose to quit my both jobs – as a junior lawyer and as a manager in a big company involved in real estate construction. At that time I was engaged to a girl for four years, who was a judge. She fell in depression for a long time… and she saw things differently after her depression. You know, she studied a lot and didn’t go out anymore. After a long period of this, she didn’t have any more energy, any more power to fight against any of the difficulties. And you have to provide a happiness to your soul so you can keep good balance. She is now in a hospital for people with mental issues. So she came one day and said “I don’t love you anymore, I don’t want to be together”. And really I was doing both the jobs for her because I wanted to be able to provide her the comfort. As a man I do not need that many things, she needed more the make up, the clothes… I was just wanting to share the feelings with someone and have what I need, nothing luxurious.
After this I decided I can’t stay anymore in my country, everywhere I went we had a memory ‘we went there for the first time to eat’ or ‘we met at that corner’ and so on. So I knew I had to change places and start a new life. Then I got this project from a friend of mine, I met her in Milano when I was playing soccer for Inter Milan. She was a Director from the United States. So I showed her Milan and Italy, and we made friends. She knew I was writing poetry and other things, and she proposed me ‘you have talent, you should focus on this… look I have a good opportunity for you – we are going with a private theatre in the US. It is mostly with a charity but they are paying well, and you can help to write the scenarios with us’.
I accepted and started to work with them… and then they thought it was a good idea for me to also try as an actor. They gave me some training, and I started to let my hair grow, because it was for the role. Now the project has finished but I have decided to keep the hair.”

“The world is changing….

… you only need to look at the skyline and see how quickly its changed, because day by day, you see less of the sky and more of new buildings.

I was born in Hull but I’ve been living in London for a long time now and I can honestly say that I have been all the way up in the skies and down in the ground too. I’ve seen it all change but always tried to make sure I’ve stayed the same  – they way I behave, the way I treat people and think about the things I do. I really enjoy what I do now; it doesn’t give me a lot of money, but I get to see and talk to all types of people all day long; and sometimes I will end up in a long conversation with very friendly people. Some who you wouldn’t expect to be so nice. This is what London offers, and if you are willing to speak to people, then there is so much you can learn”.

I’ve always wanted to be a nurse… ever since my mum fell sick years ago.

“I live in Goole, you probably haven’t heard of it. Up in Yorkshire. It’s so small.

I’m studying nursing – I’ve always wanted to be a nurse. I think ever since my mum fell sick years ago; she had cancer. She was in a lot of pain and every time she went to the hospital they would say the same thing that it was some sort of stomach bug. Turns out she had septicaemia. She stayed in hospital for a while, but then when things were improving they eventually sent her home. She’s passed away now, a few years back. But it’s true when they say that it’s always better before it ends. She seemed fine for a while, but it turned out that she had developed a clot in her leg. And by then it was too late.

Nursing is tough, but I want to be doing something where I can help save lives – knowing what it feels like with what I’ve been through, I’d want to save people going through a similar thing”

POST OF THE WEEK: The story of Christopher Jones, ex-member of Euphonic

“Years ago, I was part of a band called Euphonic, you may have heard of them. After a while I began writing a book – but one where each chapter had a backing music track and a poem. So while people were reading they could listen to the music, which set a certain mood for them. I uploaded the progress onto MySpace, and then, well… my work was stolen by one of the band members. He started his own page with it and mine had been shut down. So I had lost most of what I’d worked on. And through the frustration, I actually ended up burning what I had written. I didn’t see the justice in what had happened and was left with nothing.

There were some tough years for me but eventually I realised I needed to get back on my feet. Now I’ve gone online and apparently they are looking to reopen the old MySpace, I don’t know how it was shut down in the first place. So I’ve just sent a letter, well I’ve sent it a few now, and I’ve had some good news that they will open this up again. And I know all my old stuff was on there – so there is hope, that it is all still on there, and I collect all my stories together, you know, and have some basis to focus on. Because at the moment… I sleep outside. But I’m still quite positive, I feel quite spiritual, which helps when it gets quite overwhelming

I wasn’t really angry, I was more frustrated over the years… what was it, 16 years ago. So now, I’m trying to get organised, and making more effort to get the work that I want. I know they say life isn’t fair, but when you try and still manage to keep a positive mind, and these things set you back, it can make me feel quite angry thinking about it. It could get me quite angry now, but it’s really good to actually see some people, like yourself, you know with a camera and a project, it’s nice seeing people doing something positive.

London is really diverse and really cultural. But I think that some people seem to lack a bit of spirituality. Especially coming from Newham, my next door neighbour was muslim, the neighbour of him was Sikh, and my neighbour on the other side was English. I really liked growing up in that cultured atmosphere. It does get a bit disappointing that over the time I’ve spent in the underground scenes, I’ve met a broad spectrum of people and they tend to lack some spirituality, or a confidence in themselves or where they’re from. It’s almost seen as selfish to actually look at yourself.

I was working on a documentary, on homeless people, it was based on a spin-off from one in New York – you can look up ‘Dark Days’, it will be online. And also the band Euphonic – look up and listen to the music, see if it’s something you like.

The relationship with the band is ongoing, I’m still positive about that and I’m quite confident I’ll be able to get something from it and start recording again. It was really one person in the band, and he was the first to leave. So I’ve got faith now and I can see things working out, I’ll hopefully be able to pick up where I left off.

Check out the music at:
https://euphonic1.bandcamp.com/album/euphonic

What we didn’t realise, however, is that we had seats next to each other on the plane.

We met in Thailand, about two years ago now. It was in March.

Was it? Yes around February or March.

Well it was actually March 24th. I always remember the dates that I travel to Thailand. And I remember this was the date I was flying home. I had seen her somewhere along our travels, but we finally only spoke at the airport when we were waiting for our flights. We sat together and we just talked and talked, about everything, what we do, our travels, our passions… common stuff, and we had so much in common. So then after about one hour we said bye to eachother, but hadn’t exchanged any contact information. What we didn’t realise, however, is that we had seats next to each other on the plane. In all our time talking we didn’t even mention what our next destination was. So it turned out we were not only going to the same place, but we were sat together also!

So we were able to speak even more now, she told me about her business where she is selling these Spinners. This time we did exchange information… we moved to London together, and now I am helping her with this in my free time. I’m a software developer – and right now this is a kind of sabbatical for me, so we found this spot in the market for Christmas to sell these.

Something I always really believe is if you want to do something, if you have an idea or a desire, then you should just do it, you won’t have a better opportunity than the present and you’ll never know where it will take you until you try.