I wanted to be a director, or a writer, a dictator of the imagination, but a passion that I always had since I can remember is acting – you get to be anyone, anything you want. I can be a mother, or a teacher, or even a sick auntie. And when I get into the character, I really become them. And it is not just for the time I am rehearsing, but I practice to make my mind become that personality. And that’s what I love, it gives you the chance to understand, and to even be, so many different people. I lived in Tuscany, and then moved here at the age of 17 mainly to study acting and also to escape from the fake social bubble that italian towns tend to create. You end up believing in unnecessary things, thinking the world starts and end there, it’s such a joke.
I believe in this idea that all of us have a decade roughly, where you have to do the best that you can to reach whatever you want to reach.
After that, we can go in a small house in Masachusettes and die by ourselves, as we would anyway. For me is surely this what I want to do. Maybe later becoming a guru; people can and meet me and I can help them thanks to the wisdom that the passing of time will hopefully give me. Like those skinny guys with white hair… I want to be a skinny girl with white hair who has people coming from different places who hear about me, and then I can tell them “yes come and tell me what’s wrong, I’ll heal you… and you as well.” I can be content like this, once I achieve my goals and then use my days to help others.
I have thought this way for as long as I remember, and I guess it is what your family make you think as well. I have a wonderful family, even with its own painful mess inside, but they are wonderful. And they’ve always told me, especially my mum, she has always told me ‘ go for what you want to go for, and she would always say ‘when you have money, spend the money, and when you don’t have money, you need to go and make some money. And that’s fair enough, I mean I want to enjoy life, i’m a big hedonist, but I like small things, I don’t buy expensive clothes – I mean I’m dressed for £4 in total, I don’t eat out all the time. I like my small pleasures like my coloured cigarettes, dark pink, purple, green cigarettes – I love smoking those . Living here is so expensive, I can’t even afford to, I’m late on my rent and I am to scared to open the water bill letter because of my baths mania, I mean i work in a cinema so I don’t make a lot of money, I need to find my shifts and all of that.